
How it seems like we (*warning- large sweeping generalizations up ahead - if they don't pertain to you, do'nt take offense!*) - as a society, seem to so rarely be satisfied with what WE have, and what WE do...it seems like we are always wanting more, or different, or better or bigger.
I was just cruisin some blogs and wanted to get all pouty - but IIIIIII want to do that, IIIIIIIII want to be the cute one, IIIIIIIIIIII want to be a superstar!!!
But then i thought, wait, i bet to someone, i AM that. Haven't we all read other people's blogs and gotten just a teensy bit jealous over this that or the other thing? I guess part of it is just human nature. We are driven to succeed, to aspire, to reach out for more.
So instead of beating myself up over it, I am going to choose to turn it into a positive.
Knock out the whining (which thankfully none of you can actually HEAR cause i promise it is quite toddler-ish of me!), and what I am left with is something visual to attain to, a visual set of goals to work towards. Instead of being jealous of other people, work toward what exactly it is that makes me jealous. Define what exactly it is that makes you have that "jealous" feeling, then see how you can turn that into a goal to attain for yourself. so that is my new goal - aren't you all glad I shared it with you????
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So anyways - Wednesday - hump day - Awana day --- what else does this day bring?
I feel like I have already lost track of the day of the week by the time wednesday rolls around. Like - la la la - just another endless cycle of housework and cartoons and diapers and work....dang that sounds so boring just typing it out! And on some level it is. Very mundane and boring. I think with winter still hanging around like a bad odor, it is very tough to feel "up" and motivated to do much. I am craving something exciting to happen. I hope it is a GOOD exciting though not like - rush to the ER exciting. oh gosh i spoke life into it now!!! throw salt over your shoulders quick!
I really should get to scrappin! I want to, I love it, it just seems like lately every time i start to get in a groove, I get massive interruptions, then it is very hard to come back to that page, so i try to start another one. I have three unfinished pages sitting in my folder right now. I never have that. I start one, finish it, save it and post it. I think it just sort of is par for the course of this blah time of year. Stores have cute springy stuff out, and I am still lookin at wearing a turtleneck and wool sweater with my winter coat for a good month yet. GAG!!!
Hopefully by this time next week when i start getting things ready for our vacation to MIL's house I will be more upbeat.
Ok - i am going to try a little fun thing to cheer myself up. Remember back a few weeks (if you read the
egger blog that is, otherwise you will have NO IDEA what I am about to talk about) anyways - they challenged us to do a joy list. Well i never quite got around to doing that as a layout, but i think maybe i will do a late winter version of things that make me happy so i can refer to it here just to look on the bright side:
** A new laptop. Coming soon to a blog near you. I cannot wait to tear into the bo

x and smell that factory electronic smell, load all my programs onto it, make it my baby who will purr and shine just for me. Who will allow me the novelty of scrapping, i mean WORKING, in the quiet luxury of Barnes and Noble coffee shop, or in the living room DURING my shows, or at nite when DARLING hubby has turned my office into an online casino. happy happy joy joy. I WILL own this bad boy before vacation. Countdown to April 8: T minus 16 days. Give or take. Not sure when i will exactly get it. But sometime before the 8th of April I assure you.
An HP dv8000z model, 17 inch screen, built in media ports along the sides, a hella graphics card, 1 gig hard drive, 240 gig memory...ahhhh sheer bliss. Now to just pray I can find a great deal on it somewhere which will allow me enough money leftover to purchase the warranty. (Note to self - blog about best buy warranty story).
** My new dream car. The GMC Yukon XL Denali. Yes it is ridiculously expensive, no i have no idea why. It just looks hella cool. Woudl'nt I be big pimpin' pullin up to the

preschool in THIS puppy? I envision decking it out with a full chrome package, cattle pusher on the front, spinners on my rims and two huge woofers in the back. Room for groceries what? Can't the kids hold their own strollers? I would of course need to then go drop a load on some gucci sunglasses to complete my look, but still - this is my joy list - leave reality out of it please!
Although I will say - my darling hubby is actually making a few inquiries with some of his friends as to exactly how many thousands of dollars a monthly payment on something like this will be. Perhaps that would be enough to make the "vacation" of a road trip to MIL's with my two screamin mi-mi's worth it. Rollin in my big pimpin car.
** My new tart burner and tarts. Yes I caved to the
Gina Miller and
Shannon Bieger pressure. I mean come on, how can you not? They are so darn CUTE with their incessant chatter about how their houses smell so springy and fresh with their tarts etc. So i did it. I bit the bullet, walked into a Yankee Candle store, and walked out about forty dollars poorer. Got a relatively non descript little tart burner and the following scents : Sunwashed Linen, Juicy Grapefruit, Greenhouse, Cherry Lemonade, and Pineapple Citrus. I have only had opportunity to burn the Grapefruit one thus far, but i must say, those little puppies can put out the SCENT let me tell you what! Other than the fact that my husband had to pretend like he was gagging at the strong smell throughout dinner, I was quite pleased with my purchase and will fully blame the aforementioned chica's for any and all bankruptcies hereby ensuing due to my newfound obsession. oh ok cool. it decided to just copy my yukon pic instead of my tarts pictures. ok.
** my really really good friends at the GMD team. These girls just know how to come along

side you when you are down and really give you a good cyber-hug. I cannot even begin to recount here the countless times and ways they have made me laugh when i need it the most, but here is something that will probably not fail to bring a laugh to my lips for a LONG time to come:
Yes that is a picture of Fifty Cent's face on a scrawny Kid Rock. I know this is totally one of those - you had to be there - type of things. But let's just say - that yes, I consider myself a cross of Fifty Cent meets Kid Rock. I'm a little white trash, but I am keepin it real.
Word to ya mutha. Fo doggy shizzle.
** The FunFetti cake I made with Kealey yesterday. Let's just say it was a good time to make a cake. And now I am FULLY working off every calorie I eat because instead of actually frosting it, putting a small piece on my plate and eating it here at my desk, I grab a bite, dip it into the frosting tub and eat it a bite at a time as i pass through the kitchen back and forth between my office and the TV room as my children have just URGENT pressing matters that need my attention every thirty seconds. Oh yes this works, I read it in O magazine.
**There is truly so much other stuff in my life to be happy for - i dont need to live somebody else's life! I could fill up pages upon pages with it. but it all comes down to just remembering it on a daily basis. I am going to try to post my happy thoughts more often here. It has really changed my mood from the beginning of this post to now- just typing it all out.
And with that -
I should go. I SHOULD go work out. I SHOULD go scrap - paper or digi - either way i have tons that I could/should be doing! I SHOULD go do something productive. But I will probably find a way to procrastinate and waste away the better part of this afternoon, cause, that's what I do best!
Much love to my homies!
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